Just Believe

Changing career paths takes courage. It’s hard. And you have to believe in it enough to keep doing it when you see no returns. Sometimes our loved ones don’t have the same conviction that you will succeed in your new path. But you have to forge on, anyway.

For me, the status quo could not be perpetuated. I got very ill and it was an obvious message to change my life. Change was not by choice for me, it’s for survival. So I might as well do it properly. For a long time I felt fearful of the change and the uncertainty that it brings. I can’t know exactly where I’ll be in a year but neither does anyone else, with a full time job. I do feel really optimistic about my future and it’s wonderfully empowering to forge your own path.

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Change, particularly later in life is very difficult, however. We have bills to pay and children to feed and many commitments. A new craft takes time to develop and that can be stressful if there is no income. But luckily both my husband and I are savers. We have a pool of savings for a rainy day. Well I can confirm that it is indeed raining. This is the time of my life when my income takes a knock and we suffer setbacks.

But I have a strong belief in me and my ability to find my way out of this difficult patch. I’ve been in a job and environment that broke me completely. I’m building myself up and I’m becoming pretty physically resilient now. I still have the odd patch where I need to recover from things that drain my energy. But I’m almost there. And I believe that I can do it. I can make this new career work.

Lately there is tension in our house about money. My husband is starting to panic about having one income and in eating into our savings. Perhaps he feels that I’m strong enough now for him to voice his stress about the finances. Or perhaps he feels that I need to get a job to contribute to the bills. I have a job, though. It has taken me a long time to feel that I have a new career and that it is real. I am a writer and a public speaker. I’m actively working on my skills and finding opportunities.

The lack of income is temporary. I have not simply become complacent and content with milling around at home. I know that we won’t be destitute and needing to eat cat food at eighty. I am confident that I will make enough income to cover these lost savings, and then some.

In a lifespan of eighty to ninety years, two years of setback is not catastrophic. I want my husband to have the same knowing that I do – that I can, and will earn good income. I want him to believe in me as much as I do. Well, my belief in my new path is big enough for both of us.

I’m not panicking. I’m being as patient as I can be. I’m certainly not loving having no income. It’s very hard for a person as independent as I am, to rely on others. But I don’t have much choice right now. I’m doing everything I can do to move forward. I have to start slowly but I have started. I’m convinced that we have a solid future ahead of us with stable income and a comfortable life.

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For the first time in my life, I know that I’m on the right path. I feel aligned with my purpose, my strengths and what I love. I’ve come up with many ideas around sources of income and I have a bunch of things brewing at the moment. I’m excited about my future and I’m happy. Well, apart from not being allowed to turn on the heating in the bathroom, that is.

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Kathy
I am a champion for living your passion. Writing is my passion, my destiny and my calling. I am a mother of two beautiful daughters and a wife and live in Johannesburg, South Africa.

2 Comments

  1. You are very brave and therefore you can only succeed. I read somewhere that having big dreams is important and it does make life exciting. If you don’t have big dreams, then big dreams can’t come true. Focus on your dreams and goals and just don’t give up.

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