I’m wondering why creative pursuits are so difficult to make money out of. How did I end up in this situation where I am skilled in left-brained, software and leadership but my passion lies elsewhere? It would be easier for me to make money out of my ‘hard’ trade but it would not make me happy. How frustrating.
So I stand at a cross roads. My energy levels are much improved and probably in the first quarter next year I’ll be ready for work. But what work? If you’ve been reading my blog for some time you might wonder what I’m on about. ‘Kathy, haven’t we established that you’re a writer?’
Yes, we have. This is the passion that I’ve discovered through my journey of recovery. I’ve wrestled with many things to get to this point of understanding. I know that I’m a writer and I’ve overcome the struggle to call myself one even before I’m published.
But the more I read about making a living from writing, the more afraid I get. Of course, I could stop reading on the topic but it is hard to get out of my mind. I’ve been told that I’m naïve but I prefer the term optimistic. I like to hope for the best outcome, not the one that happens to most people. Most people, apparently will be rejected by publishers and even those who aren’t, are unlikely to be able to make a living from their books.
I’ve submitted my book to a few publishers and I’m obtaining quotes from reputable self-publishing houses. I’m doing all the right things but the doubt is still there. Even Elizabeth Gilbert recommends keeping your day job. I don’t have one because I had to take time off to recover. How do I start something new in the knowledge that it is not my passion and still find a way to pay the bills? How to I muster energy that is already precarious and plunge into a new career that doesn’t inspire me?
I’ve thought about writing articles for publications and I’ve had one published, for free. I’ll continue to pursue that avenue although I do require payment. I love public speaking so that will be something that I’ll pursue in the new year and it does bring me excitement. I know that it’s possible for me to write a lot in my spare time and balance it with caring for my family. I know that I would enjoy spending most of my day by myself, researching or writing. But the income part is the tough bit.
It’s an important milestone for me to publish a book in my life. I’m learning a lot about the publishing industry and I know that it’s possible, with a little investment to self-publish. I’m also terrified of being scammed and ending up with a few hundred books that don’t sell or that fall apart.
Why is it so difficult to be an author? Haven’t I suffered enough in my life? When will things become easier and feel like second nature? When will the struggle end? I don’t need to be obscenely wealthy and its not fame that I’m after. I just want to live a good life, doing what I love. Is that so unrealistic?Follow me: