I know that I haven’t written in a while and I am sorry for neglecting my blog. This blog gives me an opportunity to express myself and to write. Without writing, I feel grumpy and that something is missing from my day. Although I have finished writing my book, there is a great deal of work that comes after that in order to bring it to life. And since the inspiration for the next book has not yet landed, this blog is a wonderful way for me to get my fix.
I don’t subscribe to the philosophy of the suffering artist. I love what I’ve made and I think it’s very brave to put it out there. It’s a story about my experience and at times I’ve wanted to edit the parts that are so painful to write and read. But I think that’s the very work I need to do. It’s hard and I feel naked revealing the very personal stories of my past. Anyone who creates something knows the feelings of doubt and fear that are part of creative pursuits.
Today I watched an address by Neil Gaiman to graduating arts students. At about the twelve minute mark I love it when he says this:
“The moment that you feel that just possibly you’re walking down the street naked, exposing too much of your heart and your mind and what exists on the inside, showing too much of yourself, that’s the moment you may be starting to get it right.” ~ Neil Gaiman
Well, that’s what I needed to hear as my book is close to becoming real. I have spent a lot of time trying to understand my illness, the reasons for it, to figure out a new career path, to find my passion and to reshape my life. In doing that work, it is clear that writing this book is the first step. It may not be everyone’s cup of tea but I needed to write this book. It’s for me more than for anyone else.
My book is called Avoiding Burnout: The Seven Principles of Self-Preservation. I have learned a great deal in writing it and getting it published. And I still have so much to learn about promoting my book but it is so exciting and thrilling for me. My heart bursts when I think of the work ahead of me and all the lessons yet to be learned. And I think this is the very sign of someone living their passion.
I strongly believe that when you find your treasure a-la-Paulo Coelho, there’s no going back. I’ve fallen into the rabbit hole or the vortex of creativity and I don’t think I can find my way back to the real world. But that’s exactly where I’m supposed to be.